women

The title of this blah(g) is women, though I don't expect you to read this. You see I am not the kind of asshole piece of shit that tends to keep your attention. I actually have good qualities, and things i'd like to share with you as opposed to simply giving confirmation to you deepest insecurities and worst fears. I am a nice guy, considerate of other people's feelings, I care about the environment, I love animals, I want everyone to be happy, I won't talk down to you or treat you like shit. I won't tell you your fat, or act as though no other man would ever want you as an attempt to lock you into staying here with me. I am an honest, intelligent, hardworking man who knows what i want and is on a daily basis working hard to achieve it. I don't need to be manipulative to get my way, in fact i won't even ask you to help. I'll just do it myself, whatever it is, the way i have always done. I truly would like for my effect on all things to be positive, I would rather leave you happier than you were when i found you, regardless of who you are. I leave the campground cleaner than i found it, and I'll even leave a kitchen cleaner than i found it if i cook some food. Oh yeah, I love to cook too, and I'm good at it. I will make you some delicious food, my own private recipe if you like, and i don't expect anything at all in return. These things just go for anyone, as long as i don't think your trying to take advantage of me it really doesn't matter who you are, this is who I am.

More specifically talking just to women, if I ever, even for a second see you as beautiful I will tell you, immediately, not to try to manipulate you, just cuz i want you to know. If you ever sneeze or something and I think its cute, i will tell you immediately, just like I would tell you anything else that was on my mind at that time.

This is where the problem seems to lie, do not make the mistake of perceiving my honesty as an attempt to manipulate you, if i were trying to manipulate you just to get laid, think about it, in most cases i'd be much better off telling you the exact opposite, or keeping my mouth shut. If i tell you I care about you, you Should be happy, take that as a very precious gift. Do not make the mistake of perceiving it as weakness. I am not weak, I am strong, whether we are talking about will power, processing power of my brain, or just my bench press, I am strong. Don't be a fool and perceive what may be my greatest strength as a weakness, I'm sorry if this is mean, but that is just fucking stupid. I really don't mean to call you stupid, but if you think about it,, it truly is. I mean what do you judge a guy on? what makes you decide who is a worthy person? I have seen that honesty, integrity,, I mean seriously I could list every fuckin good trait there is, and it isn't any of those that girls are attracted too. As far as i can tell its like you all live in some fantasy land and you look for some utterly mundain qualities. I mean yeah there are looks, maybe thats it, maybe its just looks that you judge off of completely and all the other bullshit, conversation and you know, everything else, is just bs. That is actually one of the most logical possibilities i have considered. cuz I mean seriously, how can you be me and,,,,,,,, ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I feel so discouraged, why should I even describe this to you? You prolly aren't even reading anymore anyway, should I truly express myself so honestly to someone who doesn't even bother to read it? this question has up til this point in my life been one of my most defining features. Can you distinguish which of your features are most defining of you? why not? Insight is a product of pain, come back here after you've felt some and this might read a little differently.